Great.

I just realized, since we broke up I've been failing most of my classes, I've actually lost weight(32 pounds- skin and bones), bags under my eyes, I can't focus on anything(not even games, or Gaia) and I feel like I haven't smiled for almost a month.

I feel like my whole life's spiraled down to nothing in record time. Today I actually thought of cutting myself to get it over with. Thankfully I didn't find anything sharp enough in my bag.

It feels like I've sunk back into this empty room, the same one I locked myself in before I met Crystal. I feel like I've nowhere else to go, nothing left to do but wait until I can go to CA and at least spend a day with Crystal. But by that time she probably doesn't even remember who I am, and I'd just be getting in the way of her life.

I don't even see what's the point of living anymore. I've already met my soulmate and that was the only thing that kept me going for 15 years. Back then I always knew that there would be someone out there for me, and it became my purpose to find that person and spend all my days with her.

Well, mission failed. Seeya, world.

~Vincent